I would notice as I was getting older, that older people can be very opinionated, crabby, mean, rude and generally just a big pain in the tushy. I would say to my husband "I hope I don't get that way when I get older". I think I am getting that way, and I even think I know why.
I have spent my whole life being the nice, polite, do everything by the rules person that I was brought up to be. My family expected me to be this way, I expect me to be this way and my friends expect that too. Heaven forbid I would break the rules, "start something" or not be polite! Well I am here to tell you, I am getting tired of that crap!!
My old way - I am sorry, but I am not interested, but thank you for calling anyway.
My new way - Who the hell do you think you are calling me at dinner time anyway? Take my number off you fricken list and never call here again!!!
Get the drift? For me this is what it adds up to. I have lived 59 years and it has went by so fast it makes my head spin. I look at my probable length of time that I have left and it isn't that long. And if that time flies by as fast as before, which it will, I don't have that much time left to make my mark.
So....from now on I will do as I please, speak as I please, well...I will say "I'm sorry" if I make you cry, but if you call me and I don't like it, oh well, I don't know you and you don't know me, so I can't hurt your feelings that bad, now can I?